Omg, a new update in this blog isn't something you see every day, eeek.

So. Here I am again.

I had a fucked up dream that caused me to wake up many times last night, and when I woke up and got up, I noticed that the kindergarden had called me like two times. Fuckshit. That means that if I had noticed it I could've gone to work and earned more money that I desperately need. Oh well, maybe they'll call tomorrow too. Unless they hate me now because I didn't pick up...

It looks like we ain't gonna get a white christmas here. It has been raining pretty much straight since I came back home, and it doesn't look like it's going to change. Right now it's not raining but the clouds are hanging low and the temperature is around 9-10 celcius. It other words, pretty much what we call summer up here. x_X

I looked at my grades this morning for this fall, and was pleasantly surprised. Something that REALLY cannot be said for those I got this spring, and which really ruined my mood. Crappyhellfuck. I didn't flunk, but I definitely do not want to hang on to those grades and I'll have to take at least one of them over again.

It's funny that I almost always rant every time I write a new blog entry, but YOU JUST GOTTA LIVE WITH IT PEOPLE. :P

I miss Oliver so much that it hurts. I go around thinking about him every day and how nice it will be to see him again, even though we aren't 100% sure when that will be. I am hoping as soon as possible. Being away takes its tear.

Kari is away too, in Thailand, that lucky motherfucker. Wish I could go there, I really really do. I also wish it was less expensive, but I guess you have to be prepared to pay tons of bucks if you want to go to paradise.

Ugh ugh ugh.

There are lots of other things I want to say as well, but I don't want to bring them up here. Guess I'll try figuring out something else to do. Perhaps like watch a 3 hour long movie on the TV just because I can..

x_X

Crappy fucking shit crap

God, I want to scream and cry really loud and then throw a mirror into the wall so it gets crushed and then I want to jump on the table so it breakes, and THEN I want to throw myself off a chair and land on the broken table.

My packing is going to hell (I will btw prove this in my picture journal later sometime), I had NO IDEA I had THIS fucking much stuff. My closet is completely empty now and ready for my roommate but she is slow and hasnt done a thing, so the entire bedroom and living room is full of bags and stuff that are going into the storage closet she usually keeps her clothes.

I tried vaccumepacking, but that almost ended in tears and a deathwish. I think the vacuumer felt the same, it started smelling really bad and getting superwarm - all ready to explode.

I've almost got 6 full pages on my exam paper, which is good since the minimum lenght is 7 pages. Although the packing is frustrating me so much that I can't focus.

Mum told me to sent stuff in boxes home, but the thing is that I dont have any fucking boxes, nor time to get any! I have one, but that one can fit like one shoe, so I think that might be problematic. If my suitcase is over 20 kg and they force me to pay, I'm gonna start talking arabic and make them deport me... hopefully to Bodø even though that would still be in Norway. THEY CAN DEPORT ME TO ARVIDSJAUR SO MAYBE MY DAD CAN DRIVE AND PICK ME UP. Mwah. Hm, if so, I wonder if they'll carry my bags?

On a better note, I've finally sent an e-mail to the scholarship folks to see if I get more money when I go abroad. And also wrote an application for a room at the norwegian institute in Rome.

UGH UGH UGH

I finally found out what to buy my grandparents for christmas too!

... And the shoes I bought yesterday kind of make me happy too. :shady:

It snowed here today! AND the snow is still on the ground! Craziness o_O

Oh.. And there was a fire at the centralstation which means that NO trains have been running ALL day. That like.. almost never happens. Which means that I might have to take the evil bus tomorrow. Those damn fires, they are crappy. I found out that Augustus hired firemen btw, to take care of Rome, which is pretty cool. But some of them were stupid and didn't do their jobs so the fires still raged. O.O

Perhaps I should go and try to pack more or something. Or possibly write more, which is the most important right now. Ugghie.

UGH UGH UGH.

I feel like a caveman.

God, I feel like I am in way over my head

Sup doods.

Lots of things are currently happening in my life and right now I feel that it is hard to hang on and keep up with it all.

I got accepted into the Rome/Athens classes this spring, which means that I have to give up my apartment now, pack all my stuff, and get the hell out (that sounded rather dramatic btw). But right now, I am working on my third exam and my brain is running at a very low gear. Everytime I look up from the screen I see a new thing that has to be packed, and it is plain impossible that I will be able to bring it all this time. My roommate seems hesitant but she has to let me keep some of my stuff here until March when my parents wanted to drive down and get all of it. EVEN THE FREAKIN' TV IS MINE, MAN! I own this whole apartment it seems, it will look very empty once I am gone. All my roommate own is all the trash that keeps cluttering it.

I have three bags, in addition to my suitcase, and two boxes, so I should be able to fit all the small stuff. Shelves and the stuff hanging on the wall should be able to stay there until March, I hope.

I AM CURRENTLY WRITING ABOUT AUGUSTUS, AND IT'S INTERESTING AND ALL, BUT MY MIND IS EVERYWHERE ELSE.

I should also notify my boss that I am coming home, and buy christmas gifts, and talk to someone about housing in Rome, and find an apartment for next year, and start planning this christmas/new years and order tickets for Athens and whatnot.

HECTIC, SHIT.

I am rather looking forward to thursday though. <3 And it will be supernice to see my family and Fox and friends next week. :)

WHY IS THERE SO LITTLE TIME IN THE WORLD? I THINK I NEED A PRESCRIPTION FOR MORE.

Oh well, bye for now my lovlies.

Your Joy is My Low

I should write more, I haven't written in ages and ages.

It's not that I don't have anything to write about, it's just that it takes a lot of effort from me to sit down and start pouring my heart and mind out on a very regular basis. :shady:

Christmas is approaching and it would be supernice if all of you sent me a detailed wishlist!

IF YOU WANT ANY CHRISTMAS PRESENTS THAT IS, BECAUSE YOU REALLY SHOULD!

I should go to the store now.

I kind of feel like prawn crackers. :shady:

Bye bye lovlies.

Music is the bomb.

INSTRUCTIONS

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Welcome to the jungle (Guns'n'Roses)

WHAT'S YOUR OUTLOOK ON LIFE?
Let it take you (Goldfrapp)

WHAT DOES YOUR FAMILY THINK OF YOU?
The real thing (Sarah Overall)

WHAT DO STRANGERS THINK OF YOU?
Icicle (Tori Amos) AHAHHHAH >_<

WHAT DOES YOUR EX THINK OF YOU?
Littlest things (Lily Allen)

HOW IS YOUR LOVE LIFE?
You and me and the moon (The Magnetic Fields)

HOW WILL YOUR LOVE LIFE BE IN THE FUTURE?
If everybody looked the same (Groove Armada) wtf

WILL YOU HAVE KIDS?
Be the girl (Aslyn)

ARE YOU GOOD AT SCHOOL?
Elevator music (Beck)

WILL YOU BE SUCCESSFUL IN LIFE?
My baby love (The Supremes)

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY ON YOUR BIRTHDAY?
99 (red) luft balloons (Nena)

WHAT SONG SHOULD THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I'm still in love with you (Sean Paul) AHHAHAHA

THE SOUNDTRACK OF YOUR LIFE ?
Complicated (Avril Lavigne) Oh holy shit

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIEND ARE?
Maniac (Michael Sembrello) NAIS.

HAPPY TIME:
California Dreamin' (Mamas and the papas)

SAD TIMES:
Valerie (Amy Winehouse)

EVERY DAY:
Abracadabra (Steve Miller Band)

FOR TOMORROW:
The Vanishing (Stars)

FOR YOU:
Scratch to void (People In Planes) o_O

WHAT DOES NEXT YEAR HAVE IN STORE FOR ME?
Relax [take it easy] (Mika)

WHAT DO I SAY WHEN LIFE GETS TOO HARD?
Why (Elefant)

WHAT SONG WILL I DANCE TO AT MY WEDDING?
Stalker (Vent) AHAAHHAH!

WHAT DO YOU WANT AS A CAREER?
Empathy (Sneaker Pimps) Oh no.

YOUR FAVOURITE SAYING?
Keep it loose, keep it tight (Amos Lee)

HOW WILL I DIE?
Don't you evah (Spoon)

AHAHHAHAHA NAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIS.

Now YOU do it. ;)

WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO HARD?

Getting through a normal day is pretty hard for someone as bad as me when it comes to making decisions, so when you're faced with a huge dilemma that will end up hurting people you love whatever you choose - yes, then life gets a little bit harder.

CRAP, CRAP, CRAP, DOUBLE-CRAP.

What's up, Doc?

So, I haven't updated in quite a while, now have I. I guess that is something that should change. After all, what's the point of even having a blog if you never use it?

The timing isn't exactly the best though, I don't really have all that much to write about right now. And to be honest, I should really spend my time on other stuff, like my Latin assignment that I am seriously struggeling with at the moment. It just got really hard all of the sudden, and it's due tomorrow and I am pretty much freaking out here - for more reasons than one. First of all, I decided to skip Latin on monday because I wanted to catch up on some of the stuff myself. I didn't go to school today either because my tummy hurts, I feel like crap and a certain monthly event has "blessed" me with its appearance. So yeah, it means that I've missed a lot of stuff and that only makes me freak out even more.

Tomorrow this really famous archaeologist from Stanford University is having a guest lecture that all our archaeology teachers really wanted us to go (and which we WANT to go to) at the exact same time as my Latin class. Tomorrow's Latin class is pretty important because it's the day we hand in/recieve our new assignments and I should really be there. But what about the other guest lecture then - the opportunity one only gets once..

I AM CONFUSED AND FUCK.

When I'm in class I usually have a good time and feel that what I'm learning is interesting and exciting, but once I go home, I don't have any happy feelings about the classes at all. >_< I feel like it's all thrown at me and I have no chance of catching up before it's too late. But yes, I'm probably just freaking out like I always do, but I can't help it, it feels awful. A thousand things are rushing through my head about stuff I need to do EVERY SECOND, but once I start doing them, I can't keep myself motivated and start doing something else instead. I really do have troubles motivating myself now, for some reason.

I'm even thinking about quitting Latin this semester and rather take it up again next fall (or this spring if I don't get into the Rome/Athens program) and focus on my other classes instead. I'm taking 20 points more than I have to, so quitting Latin wont damage my points what-so-ever. But I still feel like that would be a very stupid thing to do, especially now that I have started it. I don't like quitting things like that. I just hope it will get easier.

Back to more happier things. I just had the most amazing summer of my life. The USA trip was beyond incredible, and so was the time I spent with my friends and Oliver too. Simply amazing.

I'm learning what it feels like to be crazy in love with an unbelievable guy every day, and when other things seem dark and hard to handle, those feelings - and him of course - is what keeps me going, and helps me push through it.

I guess that's all I needed to get off my chest for this time.

I think I better call my mum today, I haven't talked to her since friday, that must be a new record of her not calling, or something. o_O

Walk in peace, friends.